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Monday, August 31, 2009

Merdekakah?



Tika jasadku bebas ceria
Mampu miliki apa sahaja
Apakah hatiku telah merdeka?

Tika bangganya kita mengibar jalur gemilang
Sedangkan agama, budaya jua bahasa semakin hilang
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika yang kaya ketawa bahagia dengan kenyang perutnya
Dan si miskin menangis derita dalam kelaparannya
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika negara berbangga tanahnya kini milik sendiri
Padahal minda warganya masih memuja budaya pengkoloni
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika jasad kita bebas sebagai hamba sesama manusia
Tetapi jiwa tidak punyai rasa hamba kepada Pencipta
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika kita merasa aman tiada peperangan
Tetapi jiwa masih resah tanpa rasa berTuhan
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika kita begitu patuh akan undang-undang dan akta ciptaan manusia
Namun masih sombong melanggar hudud jua hukum-Nya
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tuhan, merdekakanlah jiwa juga jasadku
Daripada berpaut di jajahan makhluk-Mu
Kepada bernaung di payungan rahmat jua jagaan-Mu

Tuhan, kekalkanlah kemerdekaan negaraku dalam redha-Mu
Simbahi taufiq jua hidayah-Mu kepada pemimpinku
Semoga suatu hari nanti tertegak syariat-Mu
Dalam hati setiap kami...

Friday, August 28, 2009

RAMADHAN DUA ZAMAN

I was driving all the way from Kuching back to Betong last Monday, when I heard this song which really touched my heart deep inside. I feel ashamed, jealous comparing my Ramadhan with the Ramadhan of the early mukminin. May Allah forgive us...



Ramadhan..
Satu nasib tak serupa..
peluangnya sama..
natijah berbeza..

Ramadhan mereka..
gemilang cemerlang..
mukmin berjasa di awal zaman..

Ramadhan kami..
malam terbuang..
muslim berdosa di akhir zaman..

Mereka gembira kerana kedatanganmu..
Kami gembira dengan pemergiannmu ..

Malam mereka meriah..
disimbah Nur Al-Quran..
Tapi malam kami pulang berkabung dengkur..

Mereka berlumba mengejar makrifat
Tapi kami, lesu diburu nafsu..
Hati mereka,bercahaya digilap taqwa..
Jiwa kami gelap didera dosa..

Takbir mereka, takbir kemenangan..
hadiah mujahadah..sebulan Ramadan..

Takbir kami, lesu tak bermaya..
adakala lemah tak berdaya..
Puasa sekadar lapar dan dahaga..

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Akan Syahidkah?



Ramadhan terlalu dekat, menggamit hati yang rindu. Namum bimbang melanda, betapa sibuknya saya bekerja hingga terlalu kurangnya bekal yang akan dibawa melalui bulan penuh barokah ini. Apakah segala penat lelah dalam tugasan jadi ibadah dan dinilai oleh-Nya atau sekadar istidraj mengabui mata? Terima kasih wahai Tuhan, masih sudi memberi ruang buat hamba ingat pada-Mu, masih sudi mengetuk pintu hati biarpun hamba terusan alpa pada-Mu, masih sudi membangunkan hamba yang hina ini dari lena yang panjang.

*****

Sejak semalam saya rasa lain macam, bersin yang terlalu serta hidung berair. Saya ingatkan gejala allergic rhinitis yang biasa saya alami, mungkin lantaran terdedah pada debu ditambah pula stress. Sejak pagi tadi, simptom semakin teruk bertambah kesibukan resusitasi pesakit di wad. Beberapa kali saya ditegur pesakit dan staf lain kerana kerapkali bersin dan 'menarik hingus'. Mujur saya memakai topeng muka. Saya mula rasa tidak selesa, bimbang kalau-kalau terkena jangkitan virus, merebak pula pada orang lain lebih-lebih lagi pesakit.

Petang tadi, semasa terserempak dengan rakan sekerja, saya berbual sebentar dengannya, bertanya khabar beliau yang saya lihat tak bermaya wajahnya (mungkin seperti wajah saya juga). Dia tak terkata, wajahnya menggambarkan betapa letihnya beliau. Kelihatan dia menahan diri dari menangis.

"We cry everyday because too tired and stressful," saya bergurau dengan jururawat yang duduk bersama, menggambarkan keletihan kami.

"I'm thinking that if we die because of tired working then we will be syahid. If we syahid, we shouldn't be worry of our sin anymore," katanya. Saya terdiam sekejap, lantas menyambung, "Ya..I never thought of that." Saya terkesima, baru terfikir akan benar katanya.

Akhir petang ketika melihat pesakit terakhir sebelum menyerahkan tugas oncall pada teman, saya memeriksa suhu badan saya. Rupa-rupanya saya demam (low grade fever). Saya memberitahu pengarah hospital (yang sudah dua minggu tidak membantu tugas merawat pesakit kerana telah ditugaskan mengetuai pejabat kesihatan bahagian dalam masa yang sama), bertanyakan pendapatnya sama ada perlu kah saya bertugas dalam keadaan berisiko terhadap pesakit. Beliau terus menyarankan saya cuti sakit untuk isolasi di rumah, sambil berjanji akan mengambil alih tugas saya. Biarpun sedikit berat hati mengenangkan pesakit yang perlu rawatan, saya rasa itulah yang terbaik demi kemaslahatan pesakit juga diri.

*****

Semoga ianya kaffarah dosa, maghfirah dari-Nya. Semoga ianya isolasi sambil muhasabah diri. Semoga saya kuat menghadapi Ramadhan yang dirindui dengan bekal yang tidak seberapa ini. Semoga hati jadi ikhlas, bersih dari mazmumah, terhindar nafsu ammarah. Semoga setiap saat kehidupan diisi dengan berbakti agar pergi nanti sebagai syahid sejati. Tuhan, terimalah...

Monday, August 17, 2009

RASA BERTUHAN



Kalau manusia mengenali Tuhannya
Hancur luluh hatinya lembutlah jiwanya
Tak sempat mengingati perkara yang lain
Hati dan jiwanya semata-mata terpaku
Dengan Tuhannya

Jika manusia mengenali kehebatan
Keagungan Tuhannya kecutlah perutnya
Kalau manusia sentiasa sedar pendengaran
Penglihatan dan pengetahuannya

Tuhan tidak pernah lekang dari manusia
Nescaya manusia ini tawaduk merendah diri
Di bumi Tuhannya.....

Jika manusia rasa bertuhan hidup di hatinya
Matilah angan-angan
Takut pun datang menerpa dihatinya
Manusia akan sibuk dengan dirinya
Tak sempat memikirkan diri orang lain
Takut dan bimbang tak sempat mengumpat

Aduh! kalau Tuhan sentiasa dihati
Perasaan berTuhan mencengkam dihati
Mengenang pula nikmat
Nikmat Tuhan yang banyak
Bertambah perasaan cinta dan takut
Cinta kerana nikmat dan kasih sayangnya
Takut kalau nikmat ditarik semula
Kalau terbuat dosa akan diazabnya

Begitulah kalau seseorang hamba mengenali Tuhannya
Hatinya sangat sibuk dengan Tuhan
Dunia dan nikmatnya tidak mempengaruhinya
Sekalipun dunia di tangannya

Saturday, August 15, 2009

5 RULES TO BE HAPPY

Received this from a friend in powerpoint form...hope it brighten our day...




5 RULES TO BE HAPPY:


1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

**********

No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.

Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.

There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Al-Fatihah Buat Ustaz Asri Rabbani

"Banyakkan mengingati penghapus kelazatan (mati)."




Al-Fatihah buat Ustaz Asri Ibrahim (vokalis Rabbani) yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah semalam pada jam 11 pagi. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang soleh.

"Aku adalah pengejar syurga akhirat,bagiku dunia ini adalah tempat mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk meraih syurga akhirat;aku yakin bahawa syurga akhirat tidak akan pernah dapat aku raih kecuali aku boleh menikmati syurga dunia terlebih dahulu.Maka rumah dan keluargaku adalah syurga dunia paling indah buatku. Tempat kerja syurga dunia harianku. Tetangga, masyarakat,dan bangsa adalah syurga duniaku yang lebih luas.Ke manapun dan sampai bila-bila pun syurgaku selalu bersamaku." -Ustaz Asri Rabbani

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

In The End



You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're gonna know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you are black or you're white
We're going to know who's right
We're going to see you in the light - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You'd better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you're old or young
We're going to see what you've done
There'll be nowhere else to run - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're rich or you're poor
You're going to meet at the same door;
You're going to know the real score - in the end

And if you want to help your fellow man
You better start with what is in your hand

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're going to know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth;
'Cause if the world you chose
No further than your nose
Will be where the doors will close- in the end
You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause for those who were deceived
There'll be no reprieve
There'll be no time to believe - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Life is Beautiful?

Hanya Tuhan yang memahami perasaan ini...sungguh...inilah stress yang paling teruk saya rasakan sejak bekerja, melebihi stress sewaktu melalui housemanship. Siapalah tidak stress melakukan oncall setiap hari, berselang aktif dan pasif, tidak cukup tidur pada sebelah malamnya tetapi tiada peluang berehat pada hari berikutnya, bekerja pula dalam suasana teman sekerja yang berkapasiti kurang dari kita, pasti semua beban tertumpu pada kita. Kalau sewaktu houseman, kita hanya diarah dan jarang membuat keputusan, kini nyawa pesakit dalam percaturan kita, kita terpaksa membuat keputusan yang bijak. Lebih menyedihkan ialah pesakit yang sedaya upaya diselamatkan, gagal bertahan. Pengubat hati hanyalah dengan kembali menyedari bahawa, apalah upaya kita berbanding Dia?

Saya jadi agresif, easily irritated, sinis. Sudahlah penat yang terlalu, insan sekitar pula seolah tidak bekerjasama. Mana tidaknya, kebanyakan staf sengaja merujuk pada saya untuk apa pun padahal saya bukanlah oncall aktif. Biasanya saya tidak marah, tetap memberikan pandangan sehingga ditegur oleh jururawat yang membantu saya; "Yalah kitak, siapa nyuruh bait gilak..semua orang mok refer ngan kitak." Tetapi dek terlalu penat, saya tegur dengan tegas; "Tolong rujuk pada yang oncall aktif!"

Pesakit yang pelbagai ragam juga 'kena'. Ibu bapa kepada bayi yang menolak untuk admission pada hari sebelum nya untuk rawatan jaundice, datang pada keesokan hari dengan serum bilirubin yang semakin tinggi, juga saya tegur sinis; "Tu lah..degil.. Semalam suruh masuk wad tak nak..."

Setiap hari saya mendesak Pengarah Hospital menggesa pihak HQ menghantar tenaga tambahan. Namun, jawapannya masih tertangguh-tangguh. Ya Allah, saya perlukan kekuatan extra di jiwa saya, jika tidak saya pasti rapuh...

Saya sedih kerana tidak terdaya memberikan perkhidmatan yang terbaik dalam keletihan fizikal dan minda saya. Saya bimbang jika berlaku mismanagement kepada pesakit jika saya terlalu stress. Saya bimbang impak keadaan ini kepada pesakit saya.

Saya mengadu kepada Allah atas ketidakadilan sistem ini terhadap saya. Ya Allah, dunia ini tidak adil, Engkau sahaja Yang Maha Adil... Mungkin hubunganku terlalu rapuh dengan-Mu hingga rapuh jua imanku menghadapi ujian kecil ini.

Saya mengadu kepada mak setiap kali bercakap di telefon, dan mak seperti biasa menasihatkan; "Letih macam ne pun, jangan sampai marah orang. Kalau tak suka, diam saja." Oh ibuku...kaulah cahaya hatiku.

Saya mengadu pada Shazni yang menelefon tiba-tiba seolah-olah tahu-tahu sahaja ada 'badai' yang melanda emosi saya. Terima kasih ya sahabatku atas sokongan mu...

Saya ingin melihat kehidupan ini sebagai suatu yang indah...agar saya bersabar melaluinya...

Hey baby, don't forget,
Live a life with no regrets,
You know you got to love this life,
Love your life,
How can you be blue,
When the world awaits for you,
Lovin' your life,
Life, life, life is beautiful,
Love your life.






Dan saya mahu melalui hidup di dunia ini untuk mengumpul bekal untuk ke 'sana'....

Allah berfirman dalam Surah Ar-Ra'd, Ayat 26: "Allah meluaskan rezeki dan menyempitkannya bagi siapa yang Dia kehendaki. Mereka bergembira dengan kehidupan di dunia, padahal kehidupan dunia itu (dibanding dengan) kehidupan akhirat, hanyalah kesenangan (yang sedikit)."


Maka di antara manusia ada orang yang berdo`a: "Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami (kebaikan) di dunia", dan tiadalah baginya bahagian (yang menyenangkan) di akhirat. Dan di antara mereka ada orang yang berdo`a: "Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami kebaikan di dunia dan kebaikan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari siksa neraka".Mereka itulah orang-orang yang mendapat bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan; dan Allah sangat cepat perhitungan-Nya. (Al-Baqorah: Ayat 200-202)

Kata bijak pandai: "Beramallah untuk duniamu seolah-olah engkau hidup selamanya. Dan beramallah untuk akhiratmu seolah-olah engkau akan mati besok."

Jadi, janganlah kamu bersedih sangat wahai diri....

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Why Be A Doctor?

I begin my words with the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

I have been preparing this article for about a month in respond to a request from a friend, who wants me to share about a life as a muslimah doctor. After a stressful week running the hospital and outpatient department (OPD) with only two of us around, finally I finished writing this articles. Hopefully it will be beneficial for me and anybody who wish to be a doctor.





When I was a little child, I’ve dreamed of being a teacher after seen my dedicated teachers working hard to educate me. I was once dreamed to be a tailor after seen my mother sewed my dress beautifully. I was once dreamed to be an architect after I saw amazingly built building.

Then my dream changed when I grew up, when I started to ‘know’ Islam better through usrah and started to learn what the purpose of life is. With the encouragement from my ustazah also naqibah, I plan to take medicine for the sake of Islam.


INTENTION

I’ve always ask myself from the beginning, why I want to be a doctor?

The Prophet Muhammad, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:
"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated." [Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

Making a decision to take medicine as a profession is an important decision in somebody’s life. I always remember what my medical school dean, Prof Mazidah told us when I was in my first year of medicine:

“If you want to be a doctor just to please your parents, just forget it. If you want to be a doctor to earn lot of money, just forget it because you will be paid with the amount that is not worth it with your workload. If you want to be a doctor because you think that you’ll be popular, forget it because people might not appreciate you.”

I know that I should always renew my intention; I want to be a doctor for the sake of Allah. I want to be a doctor to help people by healing their pain, as a person who helps people will be blessed by Allah. I want to be a doctor to fulfill the fardu kifayah need in our community. I want to be a doctor to help in developing medicine knowledge among muslims.


REQUIREMENT

To be a doctor, you need to get a good result in your SPM, enter matriculation or pre-medical program or pass your STPM (in sciece site), and then obtain a M.D or MBBS degree from any university that had been accredited by the government. Any medical school required you to complete at least 5 years of undergraduate study, but you might be extended 6 months to 2 years if you fail on your exam. The reason of such strict system in medicine is to make sure that you are graduated as a good and safe doctor for the public.

Apart from a good medical knowledge and skills in medicine, you should have extra criteria to be a good doctor which are; have extra patience, have a good public relation and communication skills, flexible, compassionate but firm.



HARDSHIP IN BECOMING A DOCTOR

When talking about hardship of being a doctor, it comes back to your intention. A good intention will help you to face all the obstacles during your carrier. As a doctor, you will not have enough rest and sleep, sometimes missed your meal, limited time for your personal matter, especially during your housemanship (first year of working). Sometimes you need to do on-call every other day, working 30 days non-stop in a month with limited days for your emergency leave, sick leave or maternity leave.

You need to have a very understanding family because you will have limited time to spend with them. You need to sacrifice your rest and manage your time wisely.

The tougher task is when dealing with people; you might sometimes be scolded by your seniors, tortured by your own colleagues, and cursed by patients and their relatives. You will face many kind of patients; fussy, angry, too many request, dependent and sometimes obsess. These kinds of attitude need to be overcomed with extra patience and calm. Sometimes you might be failed to face it especially when you are too tired, too hungry or in stress.


MUSLIMAH DOCTOR

Being a muslimah doctor, you sometimes have to face the situation that tests your faith and principles. During your very busy day with only 15 minutes time of rest, you need to skip your meal to perform you prayer. Sometimes you need to assist a long operation that you need to jama’ your prayer. The other thing is to maintain your hijab in operation theatre (OT) as hijab is not provided as one of OT attire and some medical centre does not allow you to enter OT with your own hijab. As a muslimah doctor, you need to act wisely with your source and local settings to make sure you’re not going against your religion in doing your job.


CONCLUSION


Being a good muslim doctor required a true intention, good knowledge and soft skills, strong physical and mental fitness, and a very big sacrifice. I end this article with a question: Are you willing to sacrifice to be a doctor? If you are, you will be a good one, Insya-Allah.

Wallahua’lam.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Merdekakah?



Tika jasadku bebas ceria
Mampu miliki apa sahaja
Apakah hatiku telah merdeka?

Tika bangganya kita mengibar jalur gemilang
Sedangkan agama, budaya jua bahasa semakin hilang
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika yang kaya ketawa bahagia dengan kenyang perutnya
Dan si miskin menangis derita dalam kelaparannya
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika negara berbangga tanahnya kini milik sendiri
Padahal minda warganya masih memuja budaya pengkoloni
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika jasad kita bebas sebagai hamba sesama manusia
Tetapi jiwa tidak punyai rasa hamba kepada Pencipta
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika kita merasa aman tiada peperangan
Tetapi jiwa masih resah tanpa rasa berTuhan
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tika kita begitu patuh akan undang-undang dan akta ciptaan manusia
Namun masih sombong melanggar hudud jua hukum-Nya
Apakah kita sudah merdeka?

Tuhan, merdekakanlah jiwa juga jasadku
Daripada berpaut di jajahan makhluk-Mu
Kepada bernaung di payungan rahmat jua jagaan-Mu

Tuhan, kekalkanlah kemerdekaan negaraku dalam redha-Mu
Simbahi taufiq jua hidayah-Mu kepada pemimpinku
Semoga suatu hari nanti tertegak syariat-Mu
Dalam hati setiap kami...

Friday, August 28, 2009

RAMADHAN DUA ZAMAN

I was driving all the way from Kuching back to Betong last Monday, when I heard this song which really touched my heart deep inside. I feel ashamed, jealous comparing my Ramadhan with the Ramadhan of the early mukminin. May Allah forgive us...



Ramadhan..
Satu nasib tak serupa..
peluangnya sama..
natijah berbeza..

Ramadhan mereka..
gemilang cemerlang..
mukmin berjasa di awal zaman..

Ramadhan kami..
malam terbuang..
muslim berdosa di akhir zaman..

Mereka gembira kerana kedatanganmu..
Kami gembira dengan pemergiannmu ..

Malam mereka meriah..
disimbah Nur Al-Quran..
Tapi malam kami pulang berkabung dengkur..

Mereka berlumba mengejar makrifat
Tapi kami, lesu diburu nafsu..
Hati mereka,bercahaya digilap taqwa..
Jiwa kami gelap didera dosa..

Takbir mereka, takbir kemenangan..
hadiah mujahadah..sebulan Ramadan..

Takbir kami, lesu tak bermaya..
adakala lemah tak berdaya..
Puasa sekadar lapar dan dahaga..

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Akan Syahidkah?



Ramadhan terlalu dekat, menggamit hati yang rindu. Namum bimbang melanda, betapa sibuknya saya bekerja hingga terlalu kurangnya bekal yang akan dibawa melalui bulan penuh barokah ini. Apakah segala penat lelah dalam tugasan jadi ibadah dan dinilai oleh-Nya atau sekadar istidraj mengabui mata? Terima kasih wahai Tuhan, masih sudi memberi ruang buat hamba ingat pada-Mu, masih sudi mengetuk pintu hati biarpun hamba terusan alpa pada-Mu, masih sudi membangunkan hamba yang hina ini dari lena yang panjang.

*****

Sejak semalam saya rasa lain macam, bersin yang terlalu serta hidung berair. Saya ingatkan gejala allergic rhinitis yang biasa saya alami, mungkin lantaran terdedah pada debu ditambah pula stress. Sejak pagi tadi, simptom semakin teruk bertambah kesibukan resusitasi pesakit di wad. Beberapa kali saya ditegur pesakit dan staf lain kerana kerapkali bersin dan 'menarik hingus'. Mujur saya memakai topeng muka. Saya mula rasa tidak selesa, bimbang kalau-kalau terkena jangkitan virus, merebak pula pada orang lain lebih-lebih lagi pesakit.

Petang tadi, semasa terserempak dengan rakan sekerja, saya berbual sebentar dengannya, bertanya khabar beliau yang saya lihat tak bermaya wajahnya (mungkin seperti wajah saya juga). Dia tak terkata, wajahnya menggambarkan betapa letihnya beliau. Kelihatan dia menahan diri dari menangis.

"We cry everyday because too tired and stressful," saya bergurau dengan jururawat yang duduk bersama, menggambarkan keletihan kami.

"I'm thinking that if we die because of tired working then we will be syahid. If we syahid, we shouldn't be worry of our sin anymore," katanya. Saya terdiam sekejap, lantas menyambung, "Ya..I never thought of that." Saya terkesima, baru terfikir akan benar katanya.

Akhir petang ketika melihat pesakit terakhir sebelum menyerahkan tugas oncall pada teman, saya memeriksa suhu badan saya. Rupa-rupanya saya demam (low grade fever). Saya memberitahu pengarah hospital (yang sudah dua minggu tidak membantu tugas merawat pesakit kerana telah ditugaskan mengetuai pejabat kesihatan bahagian dalam masa yang sama), bertanyakan pendapatnya sama ada perlu kah saya bertugas dalam keadaan berisiko terhadap pesakit. Beliau terus menyarankan saya cuti sakit untuk isolasi di rumah, sambil berjanji akan mengambil alih tugas saya. Biarpun sedikit berat hati mengenangkan pesakit yang perlu rawatan, saya rasa itulah yang terbaik demi kemaslahatan pesakit juga diri.

*****

Semoga ianya kaffarah dosa, maghfirah dari-Nya. Semoga ianya isolasi sambil muhasabah diri. Semoga saya kuat menghadapi Ramadhan yang dirindui dengan bekal yang tidak seberapa ini. Semoga hati jadi ikhlas, bersih dari mazmumah, terhindar nafsu ammarah. Semoga setiap saat kehidupan diisi dengan berbakti agar pergi nanti sebagai syahid sejati. Tuhan, terimalah...

Monday, August 17, 2009

RASA BERTUHAN



Kalau manusia mengenali Tuhannya
Hancur luluh hatinya lembutlah jiwanya
Tak sempat mengingati perkara yang lain
Hati dan jiwanya semata-mata terpaku
Dengan Tuhannya

Jika manusia mengenali kehebatan
Keagungan Tuhannya kecutlah perutnya
Kalau manusia sentiasa sedar pendengaran
Penglihatan dan pengetahuannya

Tuhan tidak pernah lekang dari manusia
Nescaya manusia ini tawaduk merendah diri
Di bumi Tuhannya.....

Jika manusia rasa bertuhan hidup di hatinya
Matilah angan-angan
Takut pun datang menerpa dihatinya
Manusia akan sibuk dengan dirinya
Tak sempat memikirkan diri orang lain
Takut dan bimbang tak sempat mengumpat

Aduh! kalau Tuhan sentiasa dihati
Perasaan berTuhan mencengkam dihati
Mengenang pula nikmat
Nikmat Tuhan yang banyak
Bertambah perasaan cinta dan takut
Cinta kerana nikmat dan kasih sayangnya
Takut kalau nikmat ditarik semula
Kalau terbuat dosa akan diazabnya

Begitulah kalau seseorang hamba mengenali Tuhannya
Hatinya sangat sibuk dengan Tuhan
Dunia dan nikmatnya tidak mempengaruhinya
Sekalipun dunia di tangannya

Saturday, August 15, 2009

5 RULES TO BE HAPPY

Received this from a friend in powerpoint form...hope it brighten our day...




5 RULES TO BE HAPPY:


1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

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No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.

Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.

There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Al-Fatihah Buat Ustaz Asri Rabbani

"Banyakkan mengingati penghapus kelazatan (mati)."




Al-Fatihah buat Ustaz Asri Ibrahim (vokalis Rabbani) yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah semalam pada jam 11 pagi. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang soleh.

"Aku adalah pengejar syurga akhirat,bagiku dunia ini adalah tempat mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk meraih syurga akhirat;aku yakin bahawa syurga akhirat tidak akan pernah dapat aku raih kecuali aku boleh menikmati syurga dunia terlebih dahulu.Maka rumah dan keluargaku adalah syurga dunia paling indah buatku. Tempat kerja syurga dunia harianku. Tetangga, masyarakat,dan bangsa adalah syurga duniaku yang lebih luas.Ke manapun dan sampai bila-bila pun syurgaku selalu bersamaku." -Ustaz Asri Rabbani

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

In The End



You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're gonna know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you are black or you're white
We're going to know who's right
We're going to see you in the light - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You'd better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
Whether you're old or young
We're going to see what you've done
There'll be nowhere else to run - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're rich or you're poor
You're going to meet at the same door;
You're going to know the real score - in the end

And if you want to help your fellow man
You better start with what is in your hand

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause whether you're right or you're wrong
We're going to know what you've done
We're going to see where you belong - in the end

You can't bargain with the truth;
'Cause if the world you chose
No further than your nose
Will be where the doors will close- in the end
You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause for those who were deceived
There'll be no reprieve
There'll be no time to believe - in the end

O and every little thing you do
You better know it's coming back to you

You can't bargain with the truth
'Cause one day you're gonna die
And good's going high,
And evil's going down - in the end

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Life is Beautiful?

Hanya Tuhan yang memahami perasaan ini...sungguh...inilah stress yang paling teruk saya rasakan sejak bekerja, melebihi stress sewaktu melalui housemanship. Siapalah tidak stress melakukan oncall setiap hari, berselang aktif dan pasif, tidak cukup tidur pada sebelah malamnya tetapi tiada peluang berehat pada hari berikutnya, bekerja pula dalam suasana teman sekerja yang berkapasiti kurang dari kita, pasti semua beban tertumpu pada kita. Kalau sewaktu houseman, kita hanya diarah dan jarang membuat keputusan, kini nyawa pesakit dalam percaturan kita, kita terpaksa membuat keputusan yang bijak. Lebih menyedihkan ialah pesakit yang sedaya upaya diselamatkan, gagal bertahan. Pengubat hati hanyalah dengan kembali menyedari bahawa, apalah upaya kita berbanding Dia?

Saya jadi agresif, easily irritated, sinis. Sudahlah penat yang terlalu, insan sekitar pula seolah tidak bekerjasama. Mana tidaknya, kebanyakan staf sengaja merujuk pada saya untuk apa pun padahal saya bukanlah oncall aktif. Biasanya saya tidak marah, tetap memberikan pandangan sehingga ditegur oleh jururawat yang membantu saya; "Yalah kitak, siapa nyuruh bait gilak..semua orang mok refer ngan kitak." Tetapi dek terlalu penat, saya tegur dengan tegas; "Tolong rujuk pada yang oncall aktif!"

Pesakit yang pelbagai ragam juga 'kena'. Ibu bapa kepada bayi yang menolak untuk admission pada hari sebelum nya untuk rawatan jaundice, datang pada keesokan hari dengan serum bilirubin yang semakin tinggi, juga saya tegur sinis; "Tu lah..degil.. Semalam suruh masuk wad tak nak..."

Setiap hari saya mendesak Pengarah Hospital menggesa pihak HQ menghantar tenaga tambahan. Namun, jawapannya masih tertangguh-tangguh. Ya Allah, saya perlukan kekuatan extra di jiwa saya, jika tidak saya pasti rapuh...

Saya sedih kerana tidak terdaya memberikan perkhidmatan yang terbaik dalam keletihan fizikal dan minda saya. Saya bimbang jika berlaku mismanagement kepada pesakit jika saya terlalu stress. Saya bimbang impak keadaan ini kepada pesakit saya.

Saya mengadu kepada Allah atas ketidakadilan sistem ini terhadap saya. Ya Allah, dunia ini tidak adil, Engkau sahaja Yang Maha Adil... Mungkin hubunganku terlalu rapuh dengan-Mu hingga rapuh jua imanku menghadapi ujian kecil ini.

Saya mengadu kepada mak setiap kali bercakap di telefon, dan mak seperti biasa menasihatkan; "Letih macam ne pun, jangan sampai marah orang. Kalau tak suka, diam saja." Oh ibuku...kaulah cahaya hatiku.

Saya mengadu pada Shazni yang menelefon tiba-tiba seolah-olah tahu-tahu sahaja ada 'badai' yang melanda emosi saya. Terima kasih ya sahabatku atas sokongan mu...

Saya ingin melihat kehidupan ini sebagai suatu yang indah...agar saya bersabar melaluinya...

Hey baby, don't forget,
Live a life with no regrets,
You know you got to love this life,
Love your life,
How can you be blue,
When the world awaits for you,
Lovin' your life,
Life, life, life is beautiful,
Love your life.






Dan saya mahu melalui hidup di dunia ini untuk mengumpul bekal untuk ke 'sana'....

Allah berfirman dalam Surah Ar-Ra'd, Ayat 26: "Allah meluaskan rezeki dan menyempitkannya bagi siapa yang Dia kehendaki. Mereka bergembira dengan kehidupan di dunia, padahal kehidupan dunia itu (dibanding dengan) kehidupan akhirat, hanyalah kesenangan (yang sedikit)."


Maka di antara manusia ada orang yang berdo`a: "Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami (kebaikan) di dunia", dan tiadalah baginya bahagian (yang menyenangkan) di akhirat. Dan di antara mereka ada orang yang berdo`a: "Ya Tuhan kami, berilah kami kebaikan di dunia dan kebaikan di akhirat dan peliharalah kami dari siksa neraka".Mereka itulah orang-orang yang mendapat bahagian dari apa yang mereka usahakan; dan Allah sangat cepat perhitungan-Nya. (Al-Baqorah: Ayat 200-202)

Kata bijak pandai: "Beramallah untuk duniamu seolah-olah engkau hidup selamanya. Dan beramallah untuk akhiratmu seolah-olah engkau akan mati besok."

Jadi, janganlah kamu bersedih sangat wahai diri....

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Why Be A Doctor?

I begin my words with the name of Allah, the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

I have been preparing this article for about a month in respond to a request from a friend, who wants me to share about a life as a muslimah doctor. After a stressful week running the hospital and outpatient department (OPD) with only two of us around, finally I finished writing this articles. Hopefully it will be beneficial for me and anybody who wish to be a doctor.





When I was a little child, I’ve dreamed of being a teacher after seen my dedicated teachers working hard to educate me. I was once dreamed to be a tailor after seen my mother sewed my dress beautifully. I was once dreamed to be an architect after I saw amazingly built building.

Then my dream changed when I grew up, when I started to ‘know’ Islam better through usrah and started to learn what the purpose of life is. With the encouragement from my ustazah also naqibah, I plan to take medicine for the sake of Islam.


INTENTION

I’ve always ask myself from the beginning, why I want to be a doctor?

The Prophet Muhammad, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:
"Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated." [Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

Making a decision to take medicine as a profession is an important decision in somebody’s life. I always remember what my medical school dean, Prof Mazidah told us when I was in my first year of medicine:

“If you want to be a doctor just to please your parents, just forget it. If you want to be a doctor to earn lot of money, just forget it because you will be paid with the amount that is not worth it with your workload. If you want to be a doctor because you think that you’ll be popular, forget it because people might not appreciate you.”

I know that I should always renew my intention; I want to be a doctor for the sake of Allah. I want to be a doctor to help people by healing their pain, as a person who helps people will be blessed by Allah. I want to be a doctor to fulfill the fardu kifayah need in our community. I want to be a doctor to help in developing medicine knowledge among muslims.


REQUIREMENT

To be a doctor, you need to get a good result in your SPM, enter matriculation or pre-medical program or pass your STPM (in sciece site), and then obtain a M.D or MBBS degree from any university that had been accredited by the government. Any medical school required you to complete at least 5 years of undergraduate study, but you might be extended 6 months to 2 years if you fail on your exam. The reason of such strict system in medicine is to make sure that you are graduated as a good and safe doctor for the public.

Apart from a good medical knowledge and skills in medicine, you should have extra criteria to be a good doctor which are; have extra patience, have a good public relation and communication skills, flexible, compassionate but firm.



HARDSHIP IN BECOMING A DOCTOR

When talking about hardship of being a doctor, it comes back to your intention. A good intention will help you to face all the obstacles during your carrier. As a doctor, you will not have enough rest and sleep, sometimes missed your meal, limited time for your personal matter, especially during your housemanship (first year of working). Sometimes you need to do on-call every other day, working 30 days non-stop in a month with limited days for your emergency leave, sick leave or maternity leave.

You need to have a very understanding family because you will have limited time to spend with them. You need to sacrifice your rest and manage your time wisely.

The tougher task is when dealing with people; you might sometimes be scolded by your seniors, tortured by your own colleagues, and cursed by patients and their relatives. You will face many kind of patients; fussy, angry, too many request, dependent and sometimes obsess. These kinds of attitude need to be overcomed with extra patience and calm. Sometimes you might be failed to face it especially when you are too tired, too hungry or in stress.


MUSLIMAH DOCTOR

Being a muslimah doctor, you sometimes have to face the situation that tests your faith and principles. During your very busy day with only 15 minutes time of rest, you need to skip your meal to perform you prayer. Sometimes you need to assist a long operation that you need to jama’ your prayer. The other thing is to maintain your hijab in operation theatre (OT) as hijab is not provided as one of OT attire and some medical centre does not allow you to enter OT with your own hijab. As a muslimah doctor, you need to act wisely with your source and local settings to make sure you’re not going against your religion in doing your job.


CONCLUSION


Being a good muslim doctor required a true intention, good knowledge and soft skills, strong physical and mental fitness, and a very big sacrifice. I end this article with a question: Are you willing to sacrifice to be a doctor? If you are, you will be a good one, Insya-Allah.

Wallahua’lam.